Pissed and Frustrated

You'd think I'd have atleast one good day, but no, somehow the Gods have decided that's not for me.

So yesterday wasn't too bad, I survived work, managed to get there on time. 2 more days until Mike and my refund. So, going home, I decided to stop at turkey hill to pick up some iced tea. Nothing big, 2 minutes, I'm in and out.. I also decided to empty the trash in my car. So distracted, I didn't notice until after I've gotten back in the car that my keys are missing.


It took me 40 minutes to figure out I'd thrown it in the garbage and the assistance of a very nice employee to pick through it. Meanwhile. I'm literally one block away from the daycare.

I call Chuck.

BIG MISTAKE.

I'm nicely told that 'I can't help you, I'm busy with my friends and we're watching a movie'. Amid snickers and screaming at me how stupid I am.

Not like I'm humiliated enough. Not like I'm freaking out because I'm late picking up OUR kids and the daycare is closing soon. Sure, let's set our priorities to SODA and a MOVIE.

I'm so sick of doing this all the time. Sure he's there occassionally and handing me money, but WTF? I don't even get to 'sit at home with my friends' because I have none to go to. And if I did, they have to come to my house because I'm too busy not having a babysitter to even think of going. My mother can't watch the kids, Chuck may offer but ask him, go ahead. Guarantee the day I need him I'm given a curfew. He offered to watch the kids when Mike comes down, but I know better.

Meanwhile I'm stuck trying to find my keys I threw away because I'm tired and not thinking straight. My back is killing me, my teeth are rotting out, my job is in jeopardy because of all the time I'VE taken off for my kids. Do you think Chuck has attendance warnings?? Meanwhile I get things told to me like 'If you need money let me know." Oh sure..

SCREW THE MONEY I WANT A WEEK OFF! Like he get's, like everyone else gets. I love my kids but at some point I WILL THROW A FIT. So If I'm a bitch or abrupt, OH FREAKIN WELL!!